by Mir | Jun 28, 2012 | It's not a regret, it's an "experience", Offspring: ecstasy and agony
We have reached the part of our program where people who love me place a gentle hand on my arm and say things like, “What are you doing for you?” This always makes me want to laugh (inappropriately). Oh, I’m just eating bonbons and kicking back, you...
by Mir | Jun 26, 2012 | It's not a regret, it's an "experience"
I’m trying to keep up with my garden, but I keep stumbling across zucchinis that managed to hide until this happened: It’s good, I guess, because once they’re that big the only thing they’re good for is baking, and that means every time someone...
by Mir | Jun 22, 2012 | Haven't been hit by lightning yet!, Oh look! Something furry!!
I have become the Queen of Inappropriate Laughter. This isn’t entirely new; I have always had a bent towards the unintentional snicker at less-than-optimal times. But now—mired in grief and worry—I go entire days in complete numbness, it feels like,...
by Mir | Jun 19, 2012 | Health is overrated, Offspring: ecstasy and agony
I kept thinking that once I knew for sure what was happening, it would be less overwhelming, and then I could say “Hey, here’s the story, I’ve finally unclenched long enough to tell you.” I could sit down and figure out what to tell, how to...
by Mir | Jun 8, 2012 | Health is overrated, Offspring: ecstasy and agony
She says “I can’t, I can’t,” and I keep telling her that she can. And she hates me for it. (I don’t really blame her.) I think “I can’t, I can’t,” but I don’t get to say it out loud. I get to talk to doctors,...
