The bloodshot eyes are tired, not stoned

I have figured out how to make a zillion billion dollars, and I can hardly wait to execute my awesome plan and be rich. And more awake.

The crux is this: If we can pinpoint whatever it is in the human body that regulates circadian rhythms and then ALTER that as needed—say, perhaps with a handy adjustable dial!—we will be filthy rich. And jetlag will be a thing of the past, because forever after people will arrive at their different time zone destinations and when they reset their wristwatches they’ll also, I dunno, lift their shirts and carefully adjust the dial in their belly buttons and instantly be acclimated to the local time.

Good LORD but I am exhausted.

At dinner last night, I was about THIS CLOSE to going face-down into a dish of guacamole; just letting out a small snore, sliding forward, and landing in that nice yummy soft green nirvana and napping until it was time to come back to the hotel. This would have seriously cut into my available time to INHALE said guacamole (and you KNOW how I feel about guacamole) (also, I feel that guacamole is a fun word to type, so I am going to say it, guacamole, as often as possible) (guacamole!), so you know this means I was tired right down into my bones.

When a fellow diner asked how I was doing, I said, “Oh, I’m really jetlagged.”

She replied, “No you’re not. You don’t get jetlag coming west.”

I don’t know what I said in response. Probably I just agreed because really, I don’t want to argue about it and if you think I’m not jetlagged, okay then. I’m just RILLY RILLY RILLY TIRED and whether you call it jetlag or fatigue or chicken salad underwear, the results are the same. Crushing exhaustion, it does not feel nice.

Chris and I woke up at 5:00 this morning. Hey, that’s EIGHT in Eastern time! Practically lunchtime! But we were awake and we couldn’t get back to sleep. This was fine for Chris, because she’s a sparrow robot and requires no rest at all. But for me, this meant that I hit the wall at about 1:00 this afternoon and I had to go take a nap. Only, this sensitivity to time zone changes, it messes me up COMPLETELY. I couldn’t fall asleep, in spite of being so tired I could cry, because… ummm… well, I have no idea. I slept for about 10 minutes before I got a phone call. Woooo! Those 10 minutes really refreshed me.

Hey; tonight was better than last night, and tomorrow night will be better still. In fact, I really think I should be well-adjusted to California time juuuuust in time to board the plane and go back home. Excellent.

Anyway, could I possibly whine about my maybe-not-jetlag any MORE? I don’t think so. I mean, it’s possible, but unlikely. You’re welcome for sharing.

As for the OTHER stuff happening here, well. I mean, there are SOME things happening besides me whining about how freaking tired I am.

For example, I went to the Hyatt Fitness Center this morning and worked out for an hour, which sounds really impressive until you remember that the original plan was to do a 15-mile walk today. Oops! 20 minutes of cardio on the stepper and 30 minutes on the treadmill sounds sort of pansy-ass, when you put it in perspective like that. Especially since I was watching The Early Show while I did it, and they were featuring the world record holder for… cup stacking. I bet her parents are VERY proud.

[I bet that she was planning to take a 15-mile walk one day, and then she was in a strange city with no walk partner and she was trying to come up with a comparable alternative that sounded palatable on 5 hours of sleep, and that's how the whole cup stacking thing happened.]

Afterwards I showered and dressed and a bunch of us went to breakfast here in the hotel, and they have this palatial breakfast buffet spread that made me want to live right here at the Hyatt for the rest of my life in spite of the saggy beds and the fact that someone stole all of our non-dairy creamer. This hotel serves bacon made from the pigs of the gods; it is thick and crisp and I may have hummed a little while I ate it. I could feel my arteries hardening with each delicious bite and I didn’t care in the slightest. The eggs were lovely as well, but it’s the bacon that will remain in my mind.

When it was time to stop eating bacon, it was time to go help with some conference stuff, and I was a Very Useful Engine for about an hour. At that point my urge to be helpful was smacked down by my urge to BREATHE, and as we were toiling away in a very lovely home with what I’m sure is a very lovely (but for me, very allergy-causing) cat, I had to abandon ship and come back to the hotel.

Then I tried to nap, which was a miserable failure, and then I met some more people, and then there was a party to go to.

I don’t know if it’s the being tired or that I’m getting older or just if that hermit thing I’ve been working on is really starting to take over, but being placed in a room with a hundred wall-to-wall people is no longer something I enjoy. It’s something I endure. I’m meeting all of these incredible people, and I’m thrilled about it and I squeal a little (and maybe tell them they’re pretty), and it’s all great, but trying to have a conversation while sandwiched between others and shouting over the din is just tiring.

Which is not to say that I don’t like a good party, because I do. But I just feel drained. And unless I can corner someone to chat with in a corner for a bit, I just feel sort of overwhelmed.

[Yeah, um, hi. That was a little party. Tomorrow there will be four times that many people around, and then the next day, even more. Good planning, Mir!]

Really, it’ll be fine. Maybe when I’m less tired (and maybe when the cocktail parties are by the pool, rather than closed in) I’ll find it less overwhelming. But you have to believe me when I say that I am usually the chattiest, loudest person in the room and I am no match for the women here. It’s quite a group.

And what am I doing? I’m wishing for naps and hoping no more pictures of my ass surface on Flickr. It’s all EXACTLY how I thought it would be, only completely different!

18 Responses to “The bloodshot eyes are tired, not stoned”

  1. 1
    Patricia July 28, 2006 at 1:37 am #

    I’m totally sorry that it was MY phone call that woke you up. Had I known that you were like two doors down and asleep — I would have waited a full hour before calling. I’m completely sorry!! :(

    But, anyhoo, on the selfish side of me — I’m totally thrilled I met you. And please tell my husband that I didn’t drool too much on you. Lie for me please. :D

  2. 2
    Brigitte July 28, 2006 at 7:14 am #

    Up a tad early again? I’d say to take some Nyquil, but on top of Margaritas it’s probably a very bad idea . . .

  3. 3
    Marly July 28, 2006 at 7:41 am #

    delurking to say our children HATE it when we call them very useful engines! They love the videos, but for some reason cannot stand that.

  4. 4
    Vanda July 28, 2006 at 8:30 am #

    Have a great time and I really hope you manage to find Denise and TW there.

  5. 5
    Bob July 28, 2006 at 8:32 am #

    I’ve seen many pictures of you at Blogher – including the incriminating one (including one or two of you smiling). Many show you with a camera. Where are YOUR blogher snaps?

    I hope you get some rest and enjoy yourself.

  6. 6
    Denise July 28, 2006 at 8:38 am #

    You get exhausted going east to west. Up at 4am ET and not in bed til late late late ET makes it hard to keep your face out of the guacamole. I was so tired, we had to leave the party. I’m still tired ’cause I’m awake at 8am ET which is 5am PT (and someone in the next room is barfing so I’m thinking she probably had a ton of fun last night! Yea Bloghers!

  7. 7
    Katie July 28, 2006 at 9:06 am #

    Time changes suck. Hang in there, I’m loving the pictures and stories!

  8. 8
    Ben July 28, 2006 at 9:31 am #

    Wait – if you don’t get jet lagged going WEST, what’s gonna happen to you when you head home to the kids?

    Er, forget I said anything. Just have fun. Burn that bridge when you come to it.

  9. 9
    Daisy July 28, 2006 at 9:42 am #

    Will this new anti-timelag invention be sold on WantNot.net?

  10. 10
    steph July 28, 2006 at 9:46 am #

    hey! hey! now don’t be making fun of cup stacking!!! I thought the same thing when my kids came home from school all excited about it and I was like “yeah whatever”. then I looked at a video of it online and my kids got their own sets of cups and we formed a club at their school and it’s an AWESOME activity! great for eye/hand coordination, uses both sides of the brain, improves confidence, team building and it’s FUN! i’m just sayin!

  11. 11
    Aimee July 28, 2006 at 10:21 am #

    *psht* Who says you don’t get jet lag going west? That’s baloney. The time change has an effect no matter which direction you travel. I think a lot of times it feels worse when you get home from where you’re going. However, I think that’s more due to the fact that most of us, when we travel several time zones out of our way, do it to have fun. We do have fun, which means minimal sleep. And we do pay for it. BTW, I now am craving both guacamole AND bacon. Thanks.

  12. 12
    Cele July 28, 2006 at 11:31 am #

    Unfortunately I am 600 miles north of you right now Mir or I would make you my killer guacamolè to eat and inhale at your own leisure. Have fun and remember despite it being a conference, it’s still a vacation take as many naps as you want.

    Only ignorant people say you can’t get yet lag going from where you were to where they are at. Hint…they aren’t the ones that got on the plane and suffer. My mother’s cure works quite well. 1) when you get off the plane, spend 10 minutes doing absolutely nothing but soaking up the sun with your eyes closed 2) take power naps. The two steps can be combined. :)

    And thirdly I have to ask, why don’t them make yummy, crispy, bacon gum?

    Enjoy yourself.

  13. 13
    Laura July 28, 2006 at 12:37 pm #

    I get the *worst* jet lag going east to west. Because at 8:00p.m. you’re ready to go to sleep, then you wake up at 5:00a.m. and no one else is up yet- but you are expected to stay up til a grownup bed time, which by your clock will make it 2:00a.m.!

    Oh, and…MMMMM guacamole. MMMMM bacon.

  14. 14
    InterstellarLass July 28, 2006 at 2:02 pm #

    Guacamole and Bacon. Two of my favorite foods. But only if the bacon is thick and crisp. Flimsy, rubbery bacon is gross.

    Elite athletes such as yourself require lots of rest before the big event!

  15. 15
    Gillian July 28, 2006 at 3:19 pm #

    No jet lag going West? Going East means when you get off the plane you get to go to bed pretty soon. Going West means you thought you were on a plane for three or four hours but actually it is only an hour later and you don’t get to go to bed until you fall over. Hang in there Mir, I’m not very good with crowds either. If two people talk to me at once my brain just goes to fix its hair.

  16. 16
    Dana July 29, 2006 at 4:54 pm #

    I loved the “chicken salad underwear” part. And poo on that lady. You were too jetlagged! What other name could it be? Just “Plane” Exhausted? Ha. I made a joke. I’m such a dork.

  17. 17
    Shiz August 1, 2006 at 7:12 pm #

    Maybe SHE don’t jetlag going West, but the rest of us do. Some people say it’s less bad coming West, but I say “whatever” to that.

    No, in fact I don’t even say “whatever”, I can’t be bothered. I just say ‘tev. ‘TEVAH!

Trackbacks/Pingbacks

  1. Woulda Coulda Shoulda » Pretending to be a business person - March 20, 2007

    [...] Now I will only have Chris to protect me, which should be sufficient if all I need to do to repel a mugger is show him that I’ve tucked my favorite little sparrow robot into my purse like a talisman. [...]

Design by LEAP